Blowing off steam
Thursday, Mar. 22, 2012 3:04 PM
"I don't have a sense of entitlement or that I deserve this. You'd be surprised at the lack of competition between nominees - I think a lot of it's imposed from the outside. Can I have my champagne now?" - Cate Blanchett
I'm becoming quite frustrated at work at the moment and I don't know why. I think I'm finally discovering what a control freak I really am. I keep having to say, "This isn't important. It's not worth stressing over." But I can't help myself. I keep mentally obsessing over the little things.
What are these little things? One of them is that I have to lug everything back and forth between my dad's office and this big common area table where I do my work. And that includes my printer. I should just be happy I have a job! But no..... I'm obsessing over how tired I am of lugging things back and forth at the beginning of the day and the end of the day. And I have to do this for 5 more months. My obsession? The fact that I want my own little area and a desk and just a small place to put my stuff and not have to lug the freaking printing around. I think that's my problem. It's lugging the printer back and forth. Gee, am I ever the pessimistic complainer.
The other thing I keep obsessing over is the fact that my dad is creating a new water hauling company. He wants J. to oversee things while I do all the billing and accounts receivable. Well, J. created a quickbooks for the company on her company's server when I work off a completely different server. And I can't access the quickbooks... and I just feel like I'm losing control. And I don't want to feel this way because it's not like I'm entitled to be in control of all the situations... and I shouldn't be obsessing over it. I shouldn't be!
Okay. I feel better now. I needed to get that off my chest obviously because once I "voiced" it, I suddenly feel calmer and less agitated by these two small things completely out of my control.
Now if only I could feel the same way about the lousy mess my house is in and Kent and my financial situation...........